Update for today:
Dad is recovering, slowly but steadily.

Lots of visitors but he needs lots of rest.

Appetite is back, fever keeps popping here and there,
numbess in right arm better, can move left toes (damn lucky)

Physiotherapy starts tomorrow if fever subsides tomorrow.
----------------------------------------
& then it came to me:
It was never me on your mind all these while,
it was him.

I guess I've done all I could & i'm tired now,
physically and mentally.

Thanks for being there for me at times,
but i know it was never me on your mind,
it was him.

I'm going to stand back now and give you back your space starting today.

You're the first person ever, first person ever,
whom I will "leave unwillingly" heh.

But id like you to know that even though he might love you more than I do,
but that doesn't mean I love you any less than him.

Goodbye, my almost lover.