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Sunday, May 30, 2010 I hate you. Monday, May 17, 2010 Hey bitch, i'm not the back up plan. You just pissed me off real bad. My turn now. (& no, every feeling I had for you died, today.) Thursday, May 13, 2010 Update for today: Dad is recovering, slowly but steadily. Lots of visitors but he needs lots of rest. Appetite is back, fever keeps popping here and there, numbess in right arm better, can move left toes (damn lucky) Physiotherapy starts tomorrow if fever subsides tomorrow. ---------------------------------------- & then it came to me: It was never me on your mind all these while, it was him. I guess I've done all I could & i'm tired now, physically and mentally. Thanks for being there for me at times, but i know it was never me on your mind, it was him. I'm going to stand back now and give you back your space starting today. You're the first person ever, first person ever, whom I will "leave unwillingly" heh. But id like you to know that even though he might love you more than I do, but that doesn't mean I love you any less than him. Goodbye, my almost lover. Tuesday, May 11, 2010 Where were you when I needed you the most? Where were you when I wanted to feel your hand in mine? Where were you? “Every man is afraid of something. That's how I know I'm in love with you; when I am afraid of losing you.” As I type this, my dad is being operated on by his surgeons. I never was scared of much things in life (except cockroaches). But when I saw my dad lying there, I broke down in tears. Tears of both sadness and fear. Sadness to see the most wonderful person in my life lying helplessly & Fear of losing him. I thank the friends I have for coming down, calling me, texting me, bbm-ing me and offering me assistance in anyway possible. I thank the uncles I have for making sure everything else from the ambulance to the operations was fine. I thank the cousins for calling and checking. I thank my godparents for coming down to give us strength. I thank the friends in places who could get things done smoothly and bypass red tape for us, I really appreciate it. Esp to Chong. (W/o your help, I think my dad would have made it) Thanks to a certain person who rushed down and being there with me. It really really really really meant a lot to me. I promise you that If i alr wasn't in love with her, I'd definately be in love with you. I hope my dad will be fine now.......... “Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.” Saturday, May 8, 2010 "Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me, everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now." That fateful night in March when our eyes met, changed my life. It has been sometime, since i got to know perhaps, one of the most wonderful persons in my life. Shes just an ordinary girl who changed my life in more then one way. She was someone I opened up to. She was someone I allowed to go past the facade I had. She was someone I could be real to. She was someone who made me realised that, whether: Fair or Tanned, Big eyes or Small eyes, Gambler or Non Gambler, Rich or Poor, Smart or Silly, Sporty or Not Sporty, all these didn't matter at all when i fell in love with her. Accidentally in love would be the perfect term to call my love for you. I never thought I'd fall in love with you. & now I realised I should have told you that I love you a few days ago, but I didn't. Heh. No matter what, I want to thank you, for changing my life in more than just 1 way and for leaving your footprints in my life. I Love you, baby. "It is now one of my biggest regrets in this life: not to have told you, I love you." |
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